Because I'm just unable to have fun.
Especially girly fun. You know, the kind. I get antsy everytime I feel like I'm wasting a minute of my precious time (which I won't use anyway), I can't relax, I don't do things girls do (spend hours shopping for dolls, eat candy, you get the gist of it)... Yet, I'd looooove to be able to do it once before it's too late, before I'm too old to pretend I'm a girl and not a woman.
I'm such a sorry waste of oxygen, sometimes.
Blythou out.
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Of course it would be great to be there with our dollie friends in Tokyo...it's lovely to see their pictures and read their entries - it does make us feel a little as if we're there too, no?!
Awww, I'm sorry you're not there -- you know, from the age of 35 to 47 I've mellowed in all kinds of subtle ways, and gotten waaaaaay more relaxed about all kinds of things -- and it's not just because of the illness. So don't worry about how you are now, it's you now, and one day you can enjoy the things that are right for you then.
That said, about Tokyo, the planet is very small and I always have the feeling I can go back easily. Probably even go back working there temporarily if I decide too.
And for a person like you, it will never be too late. I don't think you will ever grow older anymore. Just not your style, you are growing ageless. :)
You've really summed up a lot in one little phrase (really why you're a writer and I just babble). Somewhere we traveled to last year - I can't remember exactly where - we saw a tour group consisting of older people, obviously retirees, and it was apparent some of them were having trouble just moving around. And we both thought, we don't want to leave all the travel 'til it's too much of a bother for us. Of course, nowadays we're really fighting (as it sounds like you do) just not having enough time in the schedule. But back when we were students, there was plenty of time but never enough money. It's always something!!